Old Computer and a Doily Sweatshirt for Xmas

Candi composing circa 1991

My mom hot-glued those doilies on a black hanes sweatshirt and I felt very pretty. Banana clip in my hair with a bow on top. Healthy glass of brain-enhancing orange juice.
Notice the puzzle under the computer. Rickety wooden stool and that green card table. That was the "kids' table" at all holiday gatherings.
I look like myself there. Not the me I remember in my head or the one described by my family. But that is the look of how I feel right now in my own body.
Strange. She was still in there the whole time. Just sitting and looking at the screen. Waiting for some inspiration.